Friends

I've been thinking a lot about friends.  I have a group of friends I've known since I was 7 years old, slowly our group has changed, grown and slowly it seems moved on. We all met because of our love of skiing in the "wolfpack" with Bill as our coach Riley, Rory, Chris and I.  Slowly over the next couple of years Jill, Kara, Jason, Nick, Lincoln, Rachel, Justin and Will were added to our group making life more interesting.  
Thing never just went smoothly there was always drama weither over if I was dating Jason or Chris and Rachel fighting out behind the ski club in the lovely ring we built in the snow or just over someone's feeling being hurt.  But at the end of the day we all ended up still being friends.  But then we hit high school some of us including me got our first long time boyfriends and girlfriends, others just had fun.  There was also a group couple of course I like to thing of the first group couple as Riley and I ( I know that we were never a couple and I'm not sure if it would have ever worked) It was only a crush on my part but boy did I go after that kid.  Then Jason and I, Kara and Rory, Jill and Rory, Justin and I, Riley and Kara ever changing no one even us could keep up. 
This was normal for us; yet some were along the way decisions that I made changed the group or in the very least where I fit.  It has taken years to get to this point, and one drunk moment with my very first boyfriend ever telling me that I ruined his dating life forever I realized that WHO CARES.  It's come to a point that I can't hold on the amazing that our childhoods were.  I had a blast and each and every single one of you means the world to me in your own ways.  When it comes down to it I don't fit in your group anymore, one that used to be ours, one that helped make me the person I am now.  I thank each of your for making me that person and being an amazing friend to me but enough is enough. 
Maybe one day my dream of all of our kids skiing together will come true, I'm not counting on it but I hope in the very least that our kids will have the 15 years of amazing friendships I got because for one day I was placed in a group with Riley, Rory and Chris.