Horoscope

In a very anti Sheldon Cooper moment I decided to look at my horoscope for this year. Considering the hellish time I had last year loosing people I loved so much and just the crayola I went through I was hoping for something nice!  And boy was I not disappointed

“Scorpio, 2012 is your year of reckoning! You worked yourself to the bone in 2011, and now you've hit a major impasse. You've got until October to continue experimenting with what you want out of life; after that, big decisions must be made. Saturn is about to take up residence in your constellation for the first time in nearly 30 years. This planet rules karma, time and integrity, so each of these will be key themes throughout the year. Your values will be tested during the last quarter of the year, so get all your ducks in a row by then to avoid the stress of Saturn's inquisition. The good news is that a weight is about to be lifted from your consciousness, and all the background melancholy you may have felt over the past few years should lighten up.” Yahoo Horoscopes

Talk about happy and right, I really do have some pretty major decisions I am going to have to make come October! This whole graduation thing is scary!  More scary than that I’m turning back into the person I lost in high school and college, I’m starting to like who I am again.  I guess it all depends on who you surround yourself with that matters in you becoming yourself. 

I Fly? No you fall!

I have the tendency to tell my friends to jump. I tell them that if they want to do something they should do it, however most of the time I don’t follow my own advice.  That is until this weekend when I actually did follow my own advice!  And as it turned out I probably shouldn’t have. The jury is still out as to what is going to happen but from the vantage point right now….. it was a bad idea.  As Staci so lovingly says “ I fly?!!?” “NO YOU FALL!”  and boy did I ever fall. :/

Night Beach Trip

A spur of the moment trip to Hampton Beach, NH last night. This most likely ranks up in the top 3 if not the most crazy thing I have ever done! Jordan, Staci, Zac and I went to the movies at 10 and saw 21 jump street then not wanting the night to end Staci and I threw the idea out there of going to the beach to watch the sunrise.

So my night was spent laying on the beach in 32 degrees trying to stay warm looking at the stars. J  Then sitting there as the sun just barely was rising until it was over the ocean shinning sooooo bright! Just relaxing thinking and enjoying.  It was a great night and an amazing sunrise! 

New Hampshire Adventure!

For as long as Staci hasn't been with Drew and I haven't been with Josh she has wanted me to go home with her. This weekend she finally succeeded in that quest!   I went to NH Friday afternoon we went out to a bar in Concord then over to the house of one of her high school classmates.  Much to probably everyone that knows me surprise I actually danced!  I know shocking right!  Staci tried to get pictures to prove it to one of our friends cause he wouldn’t have believed it at all.  I got to know Staci’s friends Mike, Jordan, Scott, Ryan, Coleman and a few others I can’t for the life of me remember! I stayed up WAY past my bedtime and I’m still trying to recover from it.

Saturday we headed over to the mall to do some shopping! It was one year to the day that my Nanny passed away, it was a great way to spend the day.  She was the best person ever! I miss her so much. If she had still been alive Saturday when I woke up at 2pm I would have picked up the phone and called her right away!  :/

I decided to ignore the possible wrath I would get and went to Allenstown to see one of my friends. It was great to be back even if just for a half hour.  I miss everyone I met from when Josh was living there.  Staci and I then got ready to go out AGAIN! This time to Manchester with Mike, Jordan, Katie and Nick.  I had a great time, I even danced on a speaker!  I had a great time!  Now I start the adventure of teaching 6^th grade for 3 days… they scare me! 

Thinking back

Last night I had dinner with two of my friends one whom I've been friends with since we were 10 or so.  She and I have an interesting history. Last night after dinner and an asshole move by the guy that was with us we ended up having ice cream on the deck of the place that we met 12 years ago. 2 am sitting on the deck looking at the stars talking about how nothing ended up the way anyone thought it would.  Single changes in decisions that we made what affect would they have on us now? Would it matter or would we have ended up in the same place?

Our Group in 2007 at Pico.

I haven't told many people this yet but I've decided it's time for me to move on since some of our friends won't.  This is my last season skiing at Killington. I have spent the last 15 years of my life skiing Killington, loving the club and my friends that I met in the program I now coach. 15 years is a LONG time!!! The sunrise services, the egg hunts, singing on the snowdon triple, the way everyone dated everyone, the crazy sledding runs at Rory's house, ice skating at the Grist Mill pond for hours, walking to Pizza Jerks.  The amazing memories of getting chased by the snowcat out of the half pipe while sledding in it on food trays, handing out Join Bode t-shirts. I will miss it all, the people who watched me grow up, the kids I have coached but I will always have the memories. 

Friends

I've been thinking a lot about friends.  I have a group of friends I've known since I was 7 years old, slowly our group has changed, grown and slowly it seems moved on. We all met because of our love of skiing in the "wolfpack" with Bill as our coach Riley, Rory, Chris and I.  Slowly over the next couple of years Jill, Kara, Jason, Nick, Lincoln, Rachel, Justin and Will were added to our group making life more interesting.  
Thing never just went smoothly there was always drama weither over if I was dating Jason or Chris and Rachel fighting out behind the ski club in the lovely ring we built in the snow or just over someone's feeling being hurt.  But at the end of the day we all ended up still being friends.  But then we hit high school some of us including me got our first long time boyfriends and girlfriends, others just had fun.  There was also a group couple of course I like to thing of the first group couple as Riley and I ( I know that we were never a couple and I'm not sure if it would have ever worked) It was only a crush on my part but boy did I go after that kid.  Then Jason and I, Kara and Rory, Jill and Rory, Justin and I, Riley and Kara ever changing no one even us could keep up. 
This was normal for us; yet some were along the way decisions that I made changed the group or in the very least where I fit.  It has taken years to get to this point, and one drunk moment with my very first boyfriend ever telling me that I ruined his dating life forever I realized that WHO CARES.  It's come to a point that I can't hold on the amazing that our childhoods were.  I had a blast and each and every single one of you means the world to me in your own ways.  When it comes down to it I don't fit in your group anymore, one that used to be ours, one that helped make me the person I am now.  I thank each of your for making me that person and being an amazing friend to me but enough is enough. 
Maybe one day my dream of all of our kids skiing together will come true, I'm not counting on it but I hope in the very least that our kids will have the 15 years of amazing friendships I got because for one day I was placed in a group with Riley, Rory and Chris. 

Great day!

While everything isn't going totally according to plans that I made earlier this year today was AMAZING!   I was seeing this guy that I mentioned before whose fantastic and due to things that are going on this just isn't the right time for us to be together. Well today was really the first time I had talked to him in a couple of weeks. GOD I miss him! I was laughing like crazy today! 
So we had a snowstorm! GIS was awesome Jenny and I were acting like our typical nut cases causing Grover to want to loose his mind ( which is nothing new when it comes to me lol) Had a great lunch with Laurie and then off to drawing! I got a 90% on my final pencil piece and she let us go early because of the roads. Today was just a great day going skiing tomorrow with the little dudes from Mt Holly School!